hi. its me again. 


does it ever happen to you? do you ever find yourself completely overcome & overwhelmed by something greater than you could ever imagine? do you ever feel like there is something inside of you... something you cant explain... something there is no words for...? 


that's where i am. right. now. 


i went outside to water the herb garden. the mint was a bit sad earlier & so i wanted to check on it & see if it needed something more.


but when i went outside, the mint was full again. there was life in it. it had soaked in the water & let it do its thing. how wonderful. how magical.


that's how i feel. i feel like ive been watered. like somehow this shriveled up, shell of a life, is new again. if only for a moment~


i drove into town today & had my mind set on sitting at caribou & reading a book or two... i went there. placed my order. and went outside to soak in the hotness & humidity that the day had to offer.


i sat & read rob bell's "velvet elvis" & wow. it seemed to have stirred up something in me. im not sure what it was yet... if anything... but it gave me permission. permission to just be real & honest. to be the person that the Lord created me to be & to just live my life & somehow let my story unfold. 


i then picked up my new mary oliver poetry book that i picked up the other day. it was wonderfully refreshing. her works always are~


i came home & just kind of sat in the coolness of the AC in the living room. watched a little of the office. decided that i wanted something more... that i needed something more...


so i washed my dinner dishes. i picked out a playlist. i made brownies. i cried. i simply allowed the Lord to just breathe life into me. 


i allowed the simple, everyday things to fill me with joy. 


im not sure what this is, and i dont even think that i want to know its name. i just want to remember it... and enjoy it for the gift that it is.


paul simon's "graceland" just came on... (click the title to listen~)
this song comes & grabs me at the moments i need it the most... its just beautifully simple... yet extraordinarily wonderful...


a poem by mary oliver came to mind while i was typing this out. i emailed it to a friend the other day... it has come up a few times these last few days, so im taking that as a sign from the Lord that maybe sending it was ok. 


i hope that you can find life in it. i hope that maybe you can take a piece of it & be blessed by it. 


listen to graceland. read mary oliver. then maybe do both together. 


let the holy spirit do its thing.


maybe you can be blessed by them too~




wild geese
m. oliver


You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and i will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of he rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, hard and exciting--
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.